Healing!

 I know many people who ask God to help them focus their spiritual life in the New Year and give them a word to help with that focus.  To say that the last several years have been hard, up hill climb, and draining would be so very true.  Probably why I let it get to me and last year blogged about once a month. 

I have just gone through some hard things mentally which has affected my spiritual walk.  It took it's toll on me and I became different.  I can't really describe it. 

 There have been plenty of times in the last several years that have been AMAZING!!  Times where I see God clearly at work and just stand in AWE!  Lots of growth and changes for the good for me and our family. 

 But this year as I absolutely love new beginnings I started dreaming about what this new year would hold.  I started reflecting on 2015 and all my issues.  I have a lot!  I definitely have the sense that God will take my brokeness and HEAL! 

 It isn't a magic genie approach or make a wish before you blow out the candles type of thing.  It is something I long for.  I desire to grow closer to God to draw near to Him this year in a way that is new to me.  I believe God wants this as well and will grant healing because He too wants us to have healing.  I have a lot of work to do to put myself back into a place of seeking Him. 

 I know many think it is silly to have resolutions or even a "word" for the year.  That's fine, but for me I am seeking Healing.  Seeking to have a personal revival. 

2Chronicles 7:14 "If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray, and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land."

 Hardest part about healing is there is guaranteed to be tears shed, old ways that have to die, and I have to get myself aligned with Christ.  So there are 4 things I am going to continue to remind myself of this next year to help me.  Yes, I have it written down in a few places and laminated for my pocket version ;).

 These came from another blog I read- so sorry I can not remember the name or even title, but it was on New Year's resolutions which were simple and real.

Be Still!  I plan to get still before God and seek His face.  Read His words to me and pray for guidance.

Be Love!  This one is hard.  When you are a broken person you hurt others.  So we have to really work at loving even when we don't feel loved.  

 Be Joy!  Now if you are not still before the Lord there is no real way to have joy or even experience it fully.  I am going to try to live in that place of looking for joy though.  Seeking it out. 

Be Kind!  Some may say this is the same as love, but really it is more than that because I love my family, but I am not always kind to them.  Oh man that is a whole new level to try to keep kindness up front in my mind and life. 

So here I am back at life and seeking HEALING!  Wanting God to take my brokeness and use me for Him.  Nothing magical about it.  Just real.  Just honest.  Bring on the Healing God for me, for my family, for our community, and for our nation and world!