Thursday, January 31, 2013

Sometimes you feel attacked and wondering why is flying by going really well......until you feel attacked from all sides - in that instant.......UGH!  (want to know more go to my last post- Flat Dawn). 
 Sometimes we know in an instant what the enemy is up to.  We know that we have something big happening that is a renewal of our hearts our our children's hearts and in the mean time we are "suffering".  But remembering well the word of Paul....James 1:2-3 "Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds,  because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance."
 Sometimes I think to myself really?  Come on God do you seriously not think I am persistent enough?  Because I think I am a pretty persistent person!  Come on!!!  But in studying these verses a little more- we see it says CONSIDER IT JOY!  Now for real that seems like God is taking it a bit far!!!!  Definitely farther than I want to take it.  Just being real! 
 Ahhh.......and yet I know that I know that I know......God can be trusted!  I know it!  But when the enemies arrows are I fall down.  Good thing that is closer to where I need to be huh?  Down on my knees crying out to God!  Now earlier today.....after picking myself back up and trying to brush off from the BLOW our family had the other day (let's just leave it at this- lying, stealing, more lying, yelling, blaming, I messed up more than once, accusing, back talking, and well you catch the drift).  I was thinking ok God.....get it.  Need to work more, do more, and - WAIT!  Remember I can't?  
 Man how quickly we forget.  Well today's blow was extra hard!  Last night I received a life changing plea from a friend for prayer for a specific situation.  Then today hit- and it HIT HARD......and this if for the life of a child.  A child that was formed by our Maker....not mine, but a friends.  I was more than GUTTED!  Absolutely pushed me over that edge!!!! 

What did I do about it?  I ran to my room locked the door, fell on my face, and cried out to God!  Pleaded with HIM, BEGGED HIM, and said I know I can't- so I am surrendering because let's face it- it's all I got right now. 
 I asked for prayer on FB and I got it- LOVE MY FRIENDS who may or may not have ever met me, but yet they are 100% willing to pray for me.  Let me tell you- your prayers were answered in a way I can not even describe!!!!  It was NOTHING short of an absolute miracle and a working of the Holy Spirit that ONLY GOD can do. 
 Now is everything all better now?  Ummmm...NO there is a lot of work to be done!  There are some huge needs!  BUT GOD IS AT WORK!!!  WAHOOOO!!!!!  I SURRENDERED and GOD WORKS!!!!  It isn't fun to feel at a total feel helpless.  When I went back to yesterday's post I was reminded of the HUGE difference between helpless and hopeless.  They are really nothing alike.  PRAISE GOD!!!!
 I have seen hope in the craziness of my life!  I have seen what I thought would be impossible- become POSSIBLE!!!!! 
 It reminds me of our Elizabeth's story in the Bible and in real life.  In the Bible Elizabeth laughed at God saying there is NO WAY I am having a baby....I am way too old!  You are crazy God. 

And yet- God was already at work and had a plan!  Elizabeth gave birth to a son that prepared the way for our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!!! 

Our Elizabeth (by the way we had our "night out" with her and went to none other than Busch Gardens last week) well her and her siblings came to us through foster care.  In the beginning it was a normal case lots of back and forth, etc.  After 3 years, more than a 100 ups and downs, cancelled court dates, people who really hated us (not the birth family) who sought to make our lives a misery, getting ripped a part by the judge in court, and well lots of other really not so fun stuff.  3 LONG YEARS.......and our children were finally given permanency- PRAISE GOD!  We seriously felt like it would never happen. 
 I mean there was a lot of crazy stuff that happened in there.  BUT 3 years later God BLESSED US WITH 3 BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN!!! 
 I am not going into details about all the things that have happened because some are confidential, and some are just hard to even begin to explain, but know this- GOD HAS SPOKEN!  When God speaks.....we need to listen.  No matter what happens then....we know we have done HIS WILL!!!! of my friends you were praying for- was the same ones that got matched.  Now this was unusual in the fact that they were not "expecting" a child.  As in they were not saying - hey we are preparing for an adoption right now, but the list and it is long of factors in this "match" are too long for myself and this family to know that it was not by accident.  It was not a oh well kind of situation. 

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE see this post!  It is more than important. 
The Hill's Adoption  
 This is a life of a child.  A special child that was chosen to be theirs.  Without hesitation I can say the battle has already started in a big way.  Which only means that this is something that is more than AMAZING!!!!  Because when we say- ONLY GOD could have arranged this- it is more than true!  

Please if you can share this and pass it on I would really appreciate it.  :)   


  1. We just got "punched in the gut" AGAIN yesterday. We seriously don't know how to keep getting up. We are just SO TIRED of the GARBAGE getting thrown at us.

    Continued Prayers Appreciated!


    1. Laurel- definitely praying!! So sorry...... :( It isn't nice at all!!!

  2. I just happened upon your blog...not by chance....because I really needed to read your post. I felt what you were writing. We were in court for 3 years as well...adopting a sibling group of 10. The battle is hard, but He does give us the strength to do this. I am so thankful for people like you who write it when I still am not able to. We are in the process of my blog still consists of daily happenings...but I can't put it all out there so as not to let the birth family use it against our children. So..thank you. Blessings ~ Becca

    1. WOW- adding you to my prayer list!!! Praying for God's continued guidance and strength! It can be very hard, but always worth it!

  3. Dawn, thank you SO much for sharing!!! Praying for the Lord to move in MIGHT, MIGHTY ways!!!

    I know He's able!


  4. Thanks for sharing - your faith and growth in Christ is an encouragement and blessing to me and through you I was able to find out about this family and contribute to their adoption.
    It is so exciting how God brings all His people together!

    1. WAHOOO!!! YEA GOD!!! HE amazes me DAILY with HIS MIRACLES! Thank you!