Thursday, April 16, 2015

The Noise

 So today's pictures brought to you by Mission's Week with jr/sr high EMERGE from The Crossing Church :).  I have been working with Emerge Missions for about 3+ years now.  It pretty much allows me to still enjoy youth since I miss that part of the time when we worked at camp and when I was a teacher. 

This week we did a "home makeover" for a widow who is taking care of her grandkiddos.  We also did some food sorting for a local food bank, visiting the nursing home, did some repairs at a home for battered women and at a home that helps people who are homeless get back on their feet, helped a homeless man one on one, and putting on a fun day for families that are migrant workers nearby.  We got the chance not only to "do stuff" for others, but to pray with them, to witness to many, and to build relationships with each other! 
 So THE NOISE!  It sometimes feels deafening.  It feels as though it surrounds your brain and you can't hear the things you love anymore.  It can drown out your sanity and worse yet it can overcome you. 
 This past week has been hard for me.  I am not sure why really except tonight I realized I needed quiet.  Now don't pass out.  If you know me well you know that I crave and thrive when I am with people and going a 100mph - henceforth the 9 kids, and a very extroverted personality! 
 It wasn't my kiddos- they are fine and beyond our normal crazy it hasn't been anything ultra nuts.  I mean the AC went out in our van.... again... for the 3 time since last summer.  The dog chewed Micheal's 2nd set of glasses.  We did home school and I did work and Jason has done work.  There were appointments to keep.  It's pretty typical week you may say. 
 We have gotten back into a routine!  And all the people who are type A like me said Ahhhhh........
 So why then do I feel like there is NOISE? 
 It happens quite easily.  It starts with not getting your quiet time- due to sickness, or bad scheduling, or plain ol' skipping.  Then in creeps bad habits and then you forget.... 
 Forget who you are in Christ.  When this happens the noise creeps in.  Just a little pitter pat type noise at first. 
 Then before you know it, it gets out of control!!!
 You start second guessing everything- your mommy skills, your home schooling skills, your ability to parent much less 9 children!  You second guess your ability to be the wife you know your husband needs.  You second guess that you are even of value to anyone.  You second guess yourself in every aspect. 
 Then that critical judgement of yourself! 
 The one that points out every mistake that you made that day!  EVERY SINGLE ONE! 

Believe me people there are a lot of mistakes to be made in just one hour let alone one day! 
 You realize how horrible you have acted, you replay what you should have said and done, and you make yourself feel like a total loser. 
 You are plugging away, but the JOY is missing.  Where did it go?  Can I ever get it back?  I can't even hear or feel the good things anymore it is like they have disappeared. 
 The noise is now deafening!  It hurts your ears.  You feel ashamed and unworthy of love. 
 Then GOD!  Then God whispers and you finally hear it.  You finally hear that loving still small voice that you have been longing for.  You rejoice at the voice of that old friend who hasn't left your side. 
 The tears flow.........
 And you ask questions like- Am I even in your will?  Help me to remember who I am!  What should I be doing about ..........?  God guide me in what you want me to be.  Lord I can't keep carrying all of these burdens they are just too heavy.  I need rest.  I need quiet time with you.  I need to put away all of those "super important" things and remember you are my most important relationship! 
 My first love.  My King and Savior. 
When that noise kicks in- be sure to kick it to the curb!  Don't let it eat you alive and spit you out. 

Step back into God's presence..... and let HIM remind you of WHOSE you are. 

As for me- I am the Daughter of the Most High!  I am complete in Him.  I am worthy.  I was chosen to be my children's mother.  I was chosen to be my husband's bride and help mate.  I was chosen by God to play a role in Emerge.  I was chosen for so many great things!  I just can't do it on my own.  I have to listen for that sweet voice of my Savior for direction. 

Monday, April 6, 2015

Happy Adoption Day Joshua, Sarah, & Elizabeth (from March 19th)

 WOW!  Memory lane.......  This was the "original adoption day" for Joshua, Sarah, & Elizabeth from 2008!  A day that is etched in our minds and hearts forever! 
 This young lady loves to doing nails, scarves, lip gloss, and reading!  I threw in some fun things like a dart gun, fun watch, etc. as well. 
 She has an amazing heart for Michael and loves to help with him, she sings on the worship team for the 1-6 graders, and loves to play sports. 
 This young many loves basketball, reading, and having fun! 
 He wants to be a firefighter and will be GREAT at it!  He has a sense of protecting others and wants to serve!  He also volunteers at church with the little kiddos at church and has served the last 2 years on our Emerge Missions Week.
 This little songbird sings on the Breakaway worship team with her sister as well. 
 She loves her Friends lego sets, reading about princesses, and has an infectious laugh! 
 These three are amazing!  I can't even explain how blessed we are because of them. 
 I couldn't imagine missing out on those smiles. 
 Their creativeness.
 Their personalities. 
 Yes, they each get to chose their desert for their day.  It works because we have 9 children and we eat it all pretty quickly anyway ;)  Joshua chose a chocolate chip cookie cake. 
 Reeses Ice Cream Cake. 
 Blueberry cobbler for Sarah! 
 Yumminess all around!!!
Oh, and Crumpet loved the balloons, but found out quickly that it is loud when they pop! 

Wednesday, April 1, 2015

The new furry family memeber.....

 This is me- picking up our new furry family member!  I didn't tell the kids!  Jason and I had been messaging back and forth while he was in England.  You see I had a very tall box I was sure such a little dog wouldn't hop out of....ummm.....not so much! 
 I had Michael with me as he had therapy.  I told the kids after therapy I was going to the store to pick some things up. They didn't know at all!!!  ;)  Have I mentioned keeping surprises is so much fun!!!
 So the gathering place in our home was this little corner of our kitchen where we had our little guy stay for the first day he was here.  I didn't want to try to find him hiding somewhere and wanted him to get used to all of us humans! 
 As you can see- our family has no more love for anything or anyone ;)!  Just kidding!!!!
 Our pets are pretty much spoiled!!!  Part of the story is we have an indoor cat that tends to go outdoors a lot too.  In fact right now Jason just took him to the vet (his tail was accidentally slammed in the door by Joanna- big ooppss).  We have an outdoor dog that we got while living and working at Camp.  He refuses to turn into an indoor dog. 
 We had another indoor dog for years.  When we moved here and Michael came home he bit him unprovoked- on the face.  So we had to say goodbye to Teddy. 
 Since then the kids and I have been begging for another indoor dog.  I mean we walk Sampson (our flat coat retriever that lives outside), and our kiddos chase the cat around constantly!  But there are many of us in this family and only 2 of them. So it only seemed natural to even it out a little bit more.  Right?
 Let's see....a name..... yes well that took us a bit!  We didn't want the same ol' names.  So we searched, talked, narrowed down the list, voted, but in the end since daddy came up with a name.  It is something in this picture! 
 Daddy loved the dog when he got home!  So much that when he was in London- he bought him a matching dog shirt and leash with the union jack on it!
 So as we thought of names we decided that an English name would be GREAT!  When we were first married we had 2 cats (one for each of us) and named them sweets and candy.  Sweets is what they call candy in England.  So that was cute. 
 So we ended up naming him Crumpet!  It fits and is very cute just like our new furry family member.  He was 2 months when we got him...of course that was in February.  As you can tell I am still trying miserably to catch up on this blog.  It's all good.  My house is a mess, my kids are loved, school gets done, work is going well, and we are happy.  So I squeeze in posts when I can. 
Oh so our biggest fear is what if the dog doesn't like Michael?  Well....this video is basically the sweetest ever and I don't think there could be a better match!  Michael clearly is telling us this dog is his new best friend :).


Friday, March 13, 2015

Our Miracle Michael Turns 5!!!! (Feb 27)

 There are not adequate words in all the world to describe our love for this sweet miracle boy!  HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHAEL JASON WRIGHT!!!! 
 Our miracle Michael:  Your continued growth and learning are inspiring.  You don't often complain.  You give amazing snuggles and your laugh is contagious.  Our world needs more of you and your determination and love! 
 To get to witness your new skills - just amazes me!  To all those doctors who said you would never....  well wish they could see you now!  :) 

You can get yourself up and situated in your walker  and are walking more every day! 
You can whip that wheelchair around all kinds of obstacles in our home. 
You can help put on and take off your own clothes. 
You can pull yourself up on pretty much anything and cruise away. 
 You love any and every rollercoaster you are tall enough for!  You are the one laughing when the grown ups are scared ;). 
You are signing more for things you want and can let us know when you are done as well!
You give high fives and can follow some simple directions too!
You make many sounds and can say words like momma, dadda, bubbles, Michael, more, go, and others...of course sometimes you only say them when you want to.
 You are learning to hold onto things and pull yourself, push objects together, stack things, and play with toys. 
You love ice cream- because you have the best taste! 
You are drinking from a straw now!
You enjoy toys that make noise and any kind of ball you can throw or roll.
You can show many kinds of emotions and feelings now.  
 Michael you have conquered more than most people will in a lifetime!  Some people say that you can't do much or maybe don't know the difference when things happen.  However, they don't know you.  The REAL YOU!  Who sees so much more than even I probably know. 
 Those who get the opportunity to love someone that is as special as you- are the fortunate ones! 
 Those who get to see your heart- are BLESSED!!!
 I can't wait to see what the next 5 years bring!  How much more you will do and say!  I can't wait to see your witness to the world about how God heals and inspires through you!  All I can say is- bring it on!  GO MICHAEL GO!!!