Sometimes there are just weeks when I think - really Lord are you sure you intended for me to have 8 children 11 and under? For real??? I have to also be honest in saying it wasn't entirely my children's fault- I failed! You know I gave in .....tried to do something a little easier. It didn't happen all at once, but over time I told myself those things that I was doing were too hard. I wanted a break and took the easy route option.
Well, I am here to tell you this kind of thing comes back to bite you. I have had to really reflect, and really listen to God. I had to tell Him....I am sorry. These are the treasures you meant for me. Yes, I know they have a lot of needs.....but instead of taking care of those needs I chose to ignore them pretending that they would go away. BUT they didn't.
So after my deep conversations with God. I sought His advice and really felt Him wrap His UNFAILING ARMS AROUND ME and say....start over. This next week start over doing the things you know you need to do. Give the time, put in the effort, and GIVE IT YOUR ALL!!!
OUCH! But....I have to say even after my realization I still didn't want to do it. I know I have to. I know I need to. I know I should, but my flesh says- NO!
So what do you do......you allow your Spirit to lead your Body! You have to pull yourself up by your bootstraps and say - GET IT DONE! There is no time for bad attitudes when it comes to the mission God has given you. You have to plug away and say - I can do ALL things through Christ who gives me strength!
So that is what I am doing. I am choosing to see God's Plan for me....walking in Faith knowing HE will get me through. Sometimes it is not all roses, candy, and fun. BUT it is HIS WILL!
Praying this week you will take courage and hang in there. Lean on God for HIS STRENGTH TO GET YOU THROUGH!
Sounds like we have something in common there!
ReplyDeleteI said no to something I believed God was asking me to do last summer.. Because I didn't want the work or risk of it.. And it effected a lot in my life.. And last Friday I finally talked to my husband and we took it to the Lord and have decided to see if we can go back and say yes..
I didn't have the faith I should have.. I got selfish.. But prayer really works!
Please pray for us that we will still be able to do what we said no for before.. Can't say what yet because we aren't telling people until we know if it will work or not..
You said it!! Ditto here too! Sometimes I think," God, haven't I been here enough times?" Thankful He loves me enough to keep walking me through the valleys.
ReplyDeleteOh, girl, even people with only one kids have those days!! I have one at least 3 times a week ;)
ReplyDeleteI heard once, if we were perfect parents, our children would not need Jesus. So our failures lead us both to the cross!
Thank you! I needed this one tonight.
ReplyDeleteMissy- THANKS!!!
ReplyDeleteI agree I had those days with just two and now with 5 I am always having those day! Praying for you and thanks for being so honest. It makes me feel more normal. You are doing God's work and what a joyful house you have.
ReplyDeleteYou hit the nail on the head for me. When my body, mind and flesh are screaming NO WAY that's when I have to surrender MY way for HIS way. Never easy but ooooh so worth it in the end!But still....I have way too many of "MY WAY" days. :( Thanks for the reminder and it's encouraging to know I am not alone fighting the battle of flesh against Spirit.
ReplyDeleteMuch love and here's to a week overflowing with HIM!!
Lisa
"I sought His advice and really felt Him wrap His UNFAILING ARMS AROUND ME and say....start over." Oh the beauty of His grace. We get fresh starts, new beginnings.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the encouragement and reminder to lean on Him, first!!!
ReplyDeleteLove this post and I SOOO get it.
ReplyDeleteGot your letter today. It brought tears to my eyes. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!
Beautifully written...
ReplyDeleteMuch love,
Future Mama
http://expectingablessing.blogspot.com/
Isn't that the struggle of our lives... learning it's not about me. (FYI- it seems like God has to show me this every week!!! haha.)
ReplyDeletePraying for you friend. Hang in there! You are not alone.
(love the video!)
Just got caught up on your blog after my long hiatus, and let me just say...I am soooooo with you. Working a lot harder over here too...
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