Urgent Need- still! What if God doesn't move my mountains?

 If you did not read my last post- please go back and pray for this sibling group of 3 boys ages 3, 4, & 5.  They need a home quickly with a family that is homestudy approved, and ready to go.  PLEASE join me in prayer for the father who has made this very hard decision.  I can't imagine the grief and pain, yet knowing this is the only way.  Also if you know of anyone who is willing- please let me know ASAP!!!  The total cost will be around $30,000 depending somewhat on the travel arrangements.  THANK YOU!!!

 These pictures were taken this past weekend....which is something I want to share more about, but not right now.  You see this weekend has been a challenge to me and I have to write about it.  I have to think about what it means to me on a deep level and this is a way to help me process.  

The last couple of weeks in general have been an extra challenge because on top of being sick.....one of our little ones has regressed with behaviors.  Some people call it this or that- let's just say it is HARD no matter what you call it- what letters it has- it is ugly.  It is NOT God's plan for them.  It is HARD ON EVERYONE.  It has consumed A LOT of extra time!!!!

That being said......we almost missed church this past Sunday- yeah....won't go into details but seriously THAT BAD!!!  Spiritual Attacks from all sides.  Not going to lie - it wasn't good.  But then determined we went to the 1pm service at our church- WHICH WE LOVE by the way.  

Our pastor spoke on "The Mountain".  You know the Stuff that stands in our way and belittles us....makes us feel sooooo inadequate.  For me it just makes me ache for heaven- because all of that will melt away.  I want a magic answer- you know pray and all will be well, but that isn't how it works.  So many people say- well my grandma died, or my dad walked out, or I got cancer so there must not be a God.  I am NOT saying those aren't hard things- THEY ARE MORE THAN THAT!!!!  BUT it isn't a reason to not believe.....so why are those problems still there?  Why doesn't God move them out of our way?  I mean HE CAN!!!!  HELLO He created the Heavens and the Earth!!!!!  

So what does that mean?  Our pastor talked about Shouting at the Mountain- you know yelling at it long enough to go away.  Yeah- done that this week.  Running into the mountain- you know if I could just be a better _________ I will run into the mountain and it will crumble.  Tried that too this week.  Trying to ignore the mountain- this is not really something I have tried lately, but in the past - yep.  Or Lamenting the mountain- "sitting in the mud puddle" as my blog friend puts it.  DONE THAT A LOT THIS WEEK!!!!  

So why is this pain not going away?  Some will say- just deal with it already- but that doesn't help because you see that HUGE MONSTROUS LOOKING MOUNTAIN is STILL STARING ME IN THE FACE!!!  


Because sometimes God is waiting......for us......get this......to have enough of ourselves.  OUCH!!!!!  Are you tired of yourself already???  - because right now.....I know I am.  I have failed tooo many times to count and that is just today!  God is waiting saying if you want to try shouting, running, lamenting, or ignoring you can try that as loooonnnnggggg as you want.  I will still be here when you are through....waiting patiently like the prodigal son to return.  I am not going anywhere- my heart still yearns for you to come to me, but instead we keep "fighting" that mountain.  


God says as we stop our attempts to "take down the mountain ourselves"....are you done?  GREAT - now He whispers- GRACE!!!  You didn't hear that?  GRACE- a little louder God- GRACE GRACE GRACE GRACE GRACE- over and over and over and over until our feeble minds start to see it.  It's not the mountain moving, our pain hasn't gone away, but God is still whispering- GRACE!!!!  MY GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR YOU!!!!  You have plans, but I plan your footsteps.  This burden will become a Blessing, but only through my hands.  It is NOT that God hurts us, or wants to cause us pain, but there are soo many times that we are through- finished- we gave up- we are DONE, and that is when God smiles and says to us- have you had enough of yourself?  


Do you want to see and trust in me- GRACE!  Do you want to know my heart- GRACE!  Do you really want to know how to follow me- GRACE!  Do you want to get rid of your anger, hate, buried deep below- GRACE!!!


WE have to decide if what we want is more important or if wanting God is most important?  We have to TRUST and the ONLY way to do that is GRACE!  GRACE directly from God's Hands.  Will you and I step forward today to receive that GRACE?


God's TRUTH:

John 10:10

New International Version (NIV)

¹⁰ The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

What is most important.....what God wants or what we want?  GRACE to all of you!!!!