FAMILY FOUND- my mountain range is still there......but I am not worried- today!

 First of all I want to Give GOD PRAISES for an amazing family that has been chosen to parent the 3, 4, & 5 year old brothers that I and many others with me have been advocating for!!!  God is sooo very Good!!!  Let's lift this family up in our prayers as they prepare to meet their new sons, for the birth father, for their family and all the transitions that will be coming soon!!! 

Want to help out?  GREAT I knew you would!  They are still short less than $10,000 - that isn't much!  Come on- $5, $10, $100, $1,000- whatever you can give!!!  Thank YOU!!!!!!!!!!

 You may think that after my last post- that I finally got it together- he he he he - yeah, me too.  I guess God said I have a lot more PRUNING to do.  Thanks God!  Yeah, sounds nuts to me too, but that is why He is God and I am NOT!!!  Instead of removing the mountain.....it became a mountain range- seriously?  Let's just say yesterday was an all time low for me since losing our Naomi.  That low is not fun.....and don't get me wrong it wasn't as bad as losing our Naomi- losing a child there are just no words!!!  But it was really really really low.....why- well let's say I lost it.   Yep, put away those fantasies that I am a glowing mommy, a darling wife, and I am perfect- HA!!!  Very far from the truth.

I seriously went around crying, complaining, whining, screaming- and well- it was a very very very low point.  I put something on facebook, and had some comments- some helpful, some not.  BUT someone put this article on there and let's just say it helped me get myself at least sort of out of my slump.  

Along with a lot of prayer, more crying, more screaming mostly at God, more pleading with God, more prayer, more crying - you get the ugly picture.  

And then it was as if a peace washed over me.  All I can say is- it was a divine intervention that I needed.  

 No  - my mountain "range" is still there.  Wish it wasn't, but it is.  But God gave me that peace that none of understand to help me see that HIS GRACE is still in fact there!  

There is a song that is on Christian radio...can't remember who sings it, but it starts off- I lost my keys in the great unknown, could you call me please....cause I can't find my phone. ...... this is the stuff that drives me crazy, this is the stuff that gets to me lately in the middle of my brokenness I forget how BIG I'M BLESSED!!!  That's it.....when we look up and we see the mountain range, and we even know we have that grace we still loose track of our Blessings too- EVEN IN THE HURTS!!!!  Sometimes that peace comes because God shows us again, and again, and again- and even when we miss it- again!!!

 This are some pictures of Jason and I's first date since we have been here.  My sweet cousin Heidi and her 2 girls came over last Saturday - I thought to just come over for dinner.  But my hubby had other plans.  He swept me off my feet and took me here- Siesta Beach........and it was perfect!!!!!  (you would think after this I was revived to deal with my mountains, but nope- I am a slow learner). 

 I even got to spend time Sunday evening with a great new group of women who have fostered or adopted!  Yeah, that helped, but I was still missing something......... (told you slow learner).

 Sometimes we can see the sunset, know who created it, appreciate it, take a deep breath and STILL MISS IT!!!!! 

That is what it was like for me.  God has given me sooo much to be thankful for.  My beautiful 8 blessings, my wonderful husband who has done so well at his new job (just braggin' a bit), a place to live, food on the table, health care, clean water, clothes, and well this list should and could go on for hours and hours.  

It is like this last picture.  We have to know and see God's Grace through His Handwriting- called scripture!  We have to see His Sincere and Deep Love for us......in our communication time with Him!  I want to encourage all of you going through some times maybe like me. To really know that there is HOPE even when we don't see that handwriting, even when we are in the desert of nothingness, even when we are broken and feel we can't be fixed...God still writes to us- God and You -together forever no matter what!!!