Friday, April 15, 2011

The In Between

Why is it that I am so not good at "the inbetween".  I feel like my skills to get on in life and do something normal seems a million times harder when we are in the "in between" time.  It is like I get emotionally stuck in a vortex.  

Homeschooling is much harder work.....
Cleaning and keeping up on things much harder.....
Feeling like a real person instead of someone going through the emotions is not existent....

Don't get me wrong having family around has felt as AMAZING as we dreamed it would!!!!  Besides not being closer (like we will be when we actually buy a home)...which in and of itself is a bit of a pain because we are spending more money on gas as well as time on the road, but part of the transition that isn't fun either.  

The "not knowing" really puts a damper on me.  I am struggling.  

I am searching scriptures for answers.  I am a scheduled person.  I don't do well with "whatever" and that makes it pretty hard.  This is a time I wish I could just let it go.  I am in need of a heart change.  

So here we go trying again to not get so emotionally dependent on my circumstances.  Trying to think about what God desires from me.  What is He trying to teach me?  You would have thought after 8 adoptions I would have learned more right?  I guess not.  

So here is a verse I am trying to concentrate on- if you have more please share :)

Matthew 5:3 God Blesses people who depend fully on HIM.  They belong to the kingdom of heaven.  

My desire is to belong to the kingdom of heaven- To be dependent FULLY ON HIM!  Not money, not the future, not mere circumstances.  It sounds so easy, and yet it isn't.  

What are your favorite depending on God verses?  Let's encourage each other to depend FULLY ON HIM for all our needs, joys, and desires.   



  1. Sigh...needed that verse.

    Limbo is the hardest for matter how I try to deal with it better. I have hopes that it's at least a smidgen better than ten years ago. Praying for you my bloggy friend (and hanging on to that verse).

  2. "From one man he made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live." (Acts 17:26)

    "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." (Jer. 29:11)

  3. Walking that in-between-time right with you ... and really struggling, too.

    Having a very difficult time finding hope ... without any sign of direction for our lives.

    Maybe we should just sell our house and move to FL with you. Then, we could at least walk this journey hand-in-hand.

    love ya,

    :) :) :)

  4. praying things seem normal and adjusted very soon :) I just read all about that sweet boy needing a family...broke my heart..praying for him too, kj

  5. I will be praying for you. Since you shared with me that you are much like me in with the perfection tenancies :) I know exactly how you feel. It just feels so much better to be in a home and have everything where it is suppose to be. :)I totally understand. I know God will provide your home and it will be exactly what you were needing.

  6. I so understand!! We were planning to move from IN to Puerto Rico by the end of April. Only we got behind on filing taxes. We then planned on a mid-May move....only for our taxes to be reviewed b/c of the ATC. So now, we are hearing it could be anywhere from June to August before we make it through that whole process. We were not prepared to stay here that long, but don't have the option to move without the refund either.

    Trying hard to balance life in limbo. It has affected our homeschooling, extended family time, personal family time, etc. We have our house 1/2 packed up, but now no where to go! We can't put it on the market until we are closer to moving....but still no real time for that!

    I'll be praying for your family! I soooooo understand!!