WOW! What a year this has been. Typically I write what is on my heart on the blog, but there are things I felt like writing here too. So here goes....in the last year we have moved from a beautiful home, life, and ministry that we loved because we felt called to me being strictly a stay at home mom, to be near family, and to have friends, and go to a church that is teaching The Word- that looks more like our family does. We have found all of the above, but not without some fights. We have changed our whole lives! Jason has learned a whole new job. He has had to learn to work for someone new. He has to drive in traffic now for about a 1/2 hr each way. He has a sit down job. He is in a Christian environment!
***(NOW we can celebrate because he is on the insurance....has seen the specialist- Pedicatric Infectious Disease Doctor, went to therapies today for feeding/speech, physical....have another apt Mon for occupational therapy. And he has an ear apt in a weekish too!!! OH and did I mention we got his meds- delivered to our door even!!!!! Man there are some benefits to living in town!!!!) PRAISE GOD FOR ALL OF THIS- this of course was NOT in my journal because it just happened.***
Our little cutie who is HIV positive, has a whole host of needs including Cebral Palsey, and possible this and that too. We couldn't love him anymore!!! He has opened a whole new scene in our home of a deeper compassion, love, and laughter!
We miss the camp, staff, our home, the huge amount of land we had, flexibility with our job, campers, Jason's cooking, mowing that massive lawn :). There will always be a part of our hearts in Uskichitto Retreat Center!!! WE LOVED THE MINISTRY THERE!!! LOVED!!!! So it is natural that it is a loss to us. A hard loss.......
Did I mention in the beginning our child who struggles with RAD was doing great with everything, but oye....lately not so much (reactive attachment disorder). UGH!!! We need to continue to give our family tools and time we all need to succeed. To be intentional.
Our pastor said- the fast will not make you "good enough". We are already accepted by Christ! BUT it will push other things aside to make room for MORE JESUS!!! An entry for the Holy Spirit to do more in our lives!!! We have fasted before, but not with our church, and not with our kids (they did different fasts on different days rotating from tv time, to desserts, etc.).
As a church wide fast it is definitely more powerful to know we are not in this alone either!
We are entering a time of more healing- therapies for Michael, times for mommy and daddy, times for our kiddos, new things on the horizon.
I am Thanking God for HIS FAITHFULNESS!! for HIS LOVE for me! For US! That in loss he always gives too......although it is sometimes hard to see at times.
Thank you God for growth! And we can't wait to see what that looks like.....this next year!!! :)
I pray that you are all going to have a fantastic weekend! That you are all full of HOPE FROM HIM!! That you see that life can be challenging, but fun too. It is all mixed together in a BLESSED chaos :).